Just the kick in the head I needed

Last week my doctor told me blood tests had revealed that my insulin level was much higher than it should be. “You’re still young and we caught this early, so we can definitely do something about it,” she said kindly.

Funny thing is, I wasn’t surprised… Well, I was, but not entirely. Last year I fell off the clean eating and fitness wagon… No, it’s more like, I was catapulted so far off the wagon, I was unable to even find the path back. I’ve been struggling for the greater part of 2016, and now the first part of 2017 to get my mind right, and make the changes which I was very much aware needed to be made. So yes, I should’ve expected something like this.

Just typing that, I make myself so angry. How do you knowingly neglect your health like that? How do you allow yourself to become so lazy and lethargic? How are you that stupid? Arghhh!!!

Okay, so being angry and screaming isn’t going to fix this. My doctor’s advice? A low carb eating plan. I misheard her, and a sorrowful groan escaped my throat.”No carbs? But I love carbs!” Even doc had to laugh then, before reassuring me with: “all us women do!”

So that’s where we are right now. Low carb eating plan, huffing and puffing my way through a tiny bit of exercise to start… a lifestyle change.

I think what makes me so mad with myself is that I’ve done this before. Not because of a well-timed kick in the head from a doctor’s appointment, but just because I wanted to. It upsets me that I let go of the really good habits which had started to come so easily, and let things get so out of control.

As we’ve already established though, hanging on to these negative feelings isn’t going to help. So I need to focus on the positive, on what I can do – I can eat right, and bring those insulin levels down. I can work on getting in shape again, and actually being able to enjoy playing soccer outside with Shawn and Zee. I can make this lifestyle change, and make it stick this time.

Also, I’m putting it out there, right here. Knowing that all of you know what I’m supposed to be doing – eating right, getting in those workouts – actually makes it easier for me to stick to this… which is probably why I put off writing this until now. I’ll keep you updated on how things go, recipes I’m trying, etc, once every two weeks, or more frequently if there’s something awesome to share. Wish me well! Eeek…




22 thoughts on “Just the kick in the head I needed

  1. Karen | TwoTinyHands says:

    Wow yes definitely the push in the right direction. It is annoying when you find out that you’ve been failing at something and when it’s something to do with your health it’s even more so. Sounds like you’re over the angst now and heading i the right direction!! Don’t be harsh on yourself if you have a slip and hope you can keep going!! ‪Thank you for linking up to the #familyfunlinky‬

  2. Angela Watling (Life, Motherhood and Everything) says:

    GOOD LUCK! You’ll do great because you’re invested in it now both from a personal and medical perspective. You’re right not to dwell on why you didn’t do this before you saw the doctor. Life is busy and with so many balls to juggle it’s inevitable something gets dropped. A great reminder to us all that self-care needs to be a priority though and that it’s okay to make it so! Look forward to hearing how you get on xx #FamilyFun

  3. Heather says:

    Good luck! I think I’ve fallen off the wagon a bit too… I’ve put on so much weight. Got to get that balance right about not being obsessed about it but eating well.

    • Charlene says:

      It’s not easy to stay on that wagon. And it’s true what you say, it’s so important to find that balance, it’s the only way I think, for it to become second nature. We can do it though, just need to take it slowly. x

  4. Lucy At Home says:

    You can do it! Everyone has times when they fall (catapult themselves) off the wagon so try not to beat yourself up about it. Every day is a fresh start and a chance to try again 🙂 I hope that you manage to fall back into your good routines quickly and easily. #blogcrush

  5. Lisa Pomerantz says:

    You wrote about it and you hit publish. If that isn’t the most positive sign of wellness, I don’t know what is… You have us all now, to nag and nudge you. You go girl! I know you have this – and you can rest easy knowing we all have your back! <3 #blogcrush

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